It's freezing cold in my bedroom but I am savoring the time I have alone. Don't get me wrong, I love him. But I rarely have time to myself.
I have been alone for the past year, practically. And one day I had to completely change that. So I miss having some time alone.
I'm on to a completely different topic now. Last night, I finally saw Twilight. After reading the book, I wasn't even sure if I wanted to ruin my mind by seeing the movie. I did. After blanking out Robert Pattinson's horrible face...I still found myself wishing/praying/hoping for my Edward. IMDB has informed me that New Moon is already in production. As it should be, Twilight has been out almost a month and a half and the movie theater was still packed. Strangely, there were a lot more older people there than I expected.
Strangely, my best friend was there too. Didn't say hello. Didn't even mind me. As if we weren't best friends for a million years. I am okay with this, though. I know if it had been Cheryl, she wouldn't have hesitated before saying anything to me. I should have opened my eyes sooner. It wasn't her & I that ruined the trio. At least, I'm half-convinced it wasn't. Because now I believe I have evidence.
Cliff is harassing me, again. I wish I still had the voicemail he left a few months back. "I'm going to find you, & I'm going to hurt you." But I don't. I do have plenty of facebook messages though. I'm sort of glad he's not calling me. Things hurt harder when I actually hear the person's voice that's hurting me. "I'm going to kill you." I don't like getting on facebook now, though. When I sign-on and see a new Inbox message...I don't want to click it. But I know I have to or it'll eat at me. Wondering what he's said this time. I don't know why it's so hard for people to see how psycho he is. I'm glad he's going in the army. I only have one month until he leaves for basic...then hopefully I'll be free from his words for a while. I only wish it could last forever.
Besides...I'll be in Mexico in 9 days. That's all I'm thinking about.
What part of Mexico are you going to?
ReplyDeleteI really can't wait for February, when I go. That week of bliss will be worth all the stupid rushing to the airport, in the airport, from the airport...
We were friends before Samuel, and we can definitely still be after.
I guess same sex relationships are just more permanent than opposite sex ones.
And I felt the exact same way when I saw Twilight. Wasn't sure I wanted to see it, then ended up seeing it anyway.
And somehow, that ugly face became more and more attractive as the movie went on.